I am reminded of that, as she lies quietly by my side. So appropriate that she is on the couch... after all, she claimed the couch the day she came home with me more than 15 years ago. The day I brought her home, I had the kitchen all set up. Tiny wooden box thingy for feeling safe, easy clean linoleum.....and extra tall baby gate. And 1000 toys. I remember that first day like it was yesterday. (I think I have forgotten most things in between! ) Little 8wk old Em, trying desperately to stay awake in her world that had just turned topsy turvey. She tried to nap...on my foot. But every time I walked from counter across to stove...she drug her little body up and plopped down on my foot again. I do have trouble being still!
I managed to leave the sleeping puppy for a minute, hoisting over the WOW extra tall baby gate....only to be immediately reprimanded with a high pitch SCREAM! OMG. ok. re group. Puppy is not ready to be alone and is apparently only FAKE sleeping. sigh.
Long story short....there is no bathroom in the kitchen! but how to leave her???? so I put her in the living room on the couch.....hmmm. she seemed really happy there. um yep....took care of business without so much as a peep. "The COUCH will be fine. thank you."
My darling Em. Its been a wild ride. You changed my life forever. We will say goodbye tomorrow, my little dear. There is a rainbow waiting for you...
Someday....I will look for you and we will be together again. Until then, find comfort with the son you loved so much. Baron, Merry and Parker...kiss them for me.
I am writing this now because I still cannot write about Baron or Merry. I can't let that happen again. so if you would like to think about us tomorrow, and our incredible life together, I hope you will smile when you think of us. Our appt is at 8:40. I am sorry, I will not be taking calls, but don't worry.
